Starting high school I attended a boarding school in my home town where due to wanting to be accepted I started smoking. I also escaped from the school to gamble in a local hotel where other students acquired the services of prostitutes. This is a life style I was taught that is not pleasing to God but I did what I did just to fit in. It was not long before I lost the desire to go to church and I only go to church to please my Mum.
After my secondary education I came to England for my higher education. With the move came what seem to be more freedom which I used in a negative way. I started drinking alcohol excessively, clubbing, smoking cannabis and cigarettes. I did not really like smoking but I did it because people around me did. I had low self esteem which made it difficult approaching ladies so I used to get drunk which seems to give me the boldness to approach ladies and help me to socialise better.
This lifestyle took its toll. I started to look like a tramp because I spend all that I had on cannabis and alcohol. I was doing poorly in my study and was behind on my rent. I looked at my life and I saw it was a mess. I taught there must be more to life than these. For the first time in years I attended a church service at my sister’s church on New Year's Eve. I prayed asking God to turn my life around.
After the New Years Eve things started to get better. This made me start to think if God is really real or is He just a figment of my imagination. So I started praying that if God is real He should reveal Himself to me. I had thoughts of becoming a Muslim which I believe will lead me to know God because of all the rituals such as washing before prayer and praying five times a day. While I was thinking these a thought came into my mind saying what if I performed all the rituals and God never reveals Himself to me how do I know I am worshiping the true God. So I prayed some more.
I started to have the desire to go to church, the desire to read the bible. I attend a church but I did not really like it. I did not feel anything from God then I meet brother Alexis from the potter’s house in Luton who invited me to church. I attend the service, heard the preaching and made the decision to accept Jesus by saying the sinner’s prayer.
From then on Jesus came into my heart and changed my desires so much it shock me how I felt when I did the things I used to do. I did not want to do the things that are not pleasing to God anymore. My studies got better and I end up gaining 2:1 grade. I stop drinking and smoking because I did not need to anymore. God made me bold. The best of it all is I came into a relationship with God in which God speaks to, guide and directs me. This is a great source of peace, Love, Joy and satisfaction. There have been difficult times but it gets better as I learn to trust and obey God. Now I look forward to a future with God. I thank God for all He has done in my life and if He can do it for me He can do it for you. |